Today is the last day of 2013, also the last day of the worst year of my life (so far at least). I've been thinking lately of all the shit I've gone through this year but honestly, I don't think I would undo a single thing that happened. Yes, I was diagnosed with an eating disorder, depression, relapsed in and out of self harm, lost friends, gained them, gained weight, but all of these things have helped shape and form me into the person I currently am and have become. If I had never gone through these experiences, I wouldn't know so much about myself, I wouldn't be as strong and brave, and I wouldn't have found out who my true friends are, and what my family turns into when it undergoes disaster mode. Now I'm not saying I enjoyed it, but without this past year, I would not be the same person I am right now. And honestly, I think I can finally say I am beginning to be happy with myself for who I am, not what I want to be or what anyone else wants me to be. Just for being Gracie. But at the same time, I absolutely don't want to go through that hell again. I have decided to make some new years resolutions, so I can really make goals for the year.